I hate people for getting too caught up in listening to their friends waay too much. And I was among those people. I know it seems dumb to still feel guilty over what I did 5 yrs ago but I just can't seem to get over it. All I know is there's no turning back time. No fixing it.
So here's what happened. (The sparknotes version):
Way bacckkk in the day lol, after my first year of high school, I had to transfer to a new high school because it was much closer to me. My brother was actually starting his freshman year at the same school too! First day on the bus and I saw these two west indian kids (and boy was it a sight to see, as there weren't too many of us in that area, at that time). At first I thought in my head, look at them flirting around they must be boyfriend and girlfriend.. and they always got off at the same stop... YUCK! Little did I know, that the same girl and guy were about to become a big part of my life. After a few days, the girl had a class with my brother and started talking to him, and since we were all on the same bus we all eventually started to get to know each other. I later found out that the boy I assumed she was flirting with, was her cousin.. and also that we had been talking on myspace (yeahh i know, that's how you knowww it was waay back lol) over the summer before school started. And without a doubt I developed a crush! I couldn't help it, he was suchaaa gentleman. I gotta say, he won me over with his sexxiiness and the charming ways, & myspace comments he left me lol. A couple of weeks into school I met another "fellow" Trini girl and we became friends. FAST. Our parents even became pretty good friends too. One day while my family and I were over at her house, she was telling me that the guy I was crushing on broke her sister's heart [won't specify how]. So as evil 15 year old bitches, we decided that I would make KoalaBear (names changed to protect privacy) fall for me, and then break HIS heart so he'd know how it feels. So I made him wait, and wait, and wait until finally he asked me during school. After school before we got on the bus, everyone was sitting on the bus looking out the window, and I broke up with him. Almost loud enough so that everyone on the bus would hear. =( It was the dumbest thing I had EVER done. And I regret it til this day. KoalaBear had actually became my best friend throughout my sophomore & junior year. And I realized too late that after all the douchebags I had dated that year that the perfect guy was in front of my eyes the entire time. I just couldn't see it. I miss him soo much, and I always tell my best friend, his cousin, that I want the best for him no hoochies / sluts / other trashy birds . YUCK! And I joke around that we're going to get married someday...
Anyway I just favorited the 'I am in love song' the one bollywood song he liked the most. (Yeah, I still remember). & that's what made me think about all this. I don't think there was anyone who made me laugh as much as he did. And I just wish I wouldn't have done what I did, because maybe today it would've been different...
Lesson Learned: Don't follow friends. Follow your heart... I didn't, and look where it got me.
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