Ever since I was little, I was always excited to go to the doctor and looked forward to every single appointment. Especially when it was Danny's turn to get his shot, and for me to watch & laugh. lol.
Yesterday I visited the doctor, and got an accurate reading of my weight which was only 3 lbs. short of a 100. And before you start with the Anorexic Bitch comments, I'd like to start my defense with the fact that I'm only like 5'2. If that.
I know it's shallow to care about appearances but I'm not happy with my weight on the outside, and how it's making me feel on the inside. No not emotionally. It's actually kind of hard to explain..
I've always been pressured about my weight by my, at times, overbearing mother and little-to-not-supportive-brother who (i'm sure mean well) but always seem to have something to say about my physique. To some, I'm pretty lucky.. I've been gaining weight in all the "right areas" (i.e. hips, butt) while my tummy remains slender. At any rate, she feels that it's necessary to makes some drastic variations in my diet. And in the beginning, I was all for it, until the wheat products were sitting in the refrigerator amongst all the donuts, cakes, and other grocery items there to set me up and taunt me. I'm gonna be REALLY honest, I've been thinking about that chocolate covered donut ALLL DAY lol And I even went as far as to open the fridge with minimal noise and try to "steal" the donut but put it back out of guilt.
I know it's not going to be easy, but I'm sure it'll all be worth it. Esp for my cardio which could really use some t.l.c bootcamp right now to get some new red blood cells in :) Anyways like always, you will be kept posted and updated regularly (with pictures, vlogs, etc.) Will I be able to fight the temptation? Guess you AND I will both find out lol.
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